Mourning the loss of someone you love will never be easy. Grief is a process that takes time and involves denial, anger, depression, bargaining, and acceptance. There is no cookie cutter answer for how someone will progress through the stages of grief nor how long each stage will last but the important thing is that they allow themselves to grieve. As I battle with working through the stages of grief for myself I wrote a letter with the words of Nayyirah Waheed in mind, "grieve. so that you can be free to feel something else."

"grieve. so that you can be free to feel something else."

-Nayyirah Waheed

To the ppl that left but will always be with me:

I remember the day you left and the moments leading up to it. It was as if you were preparing me for life without you, life without hearing you laugh, seeing you smile, getting a big hug or a kiss on the cheek. I battled with denial, shocked that someone I love and felt I couldn't live without could just leave. Like how dare someone, something take your life, this can't be real. My mind racing to recall all of the memories and moments that had lasting impressions on my life and you're telling me you're just gone?! As tears run down my face and my eyes turning red in shock and disbelief. I feel like I'm stuck in the middle of a tornado rotating in slow motion as I try to accept the reality of it all. I get one more moment to see you, that reality check that you're no longer here and it gets harder to let you go but I can feel you, I can hear you speaking to me and for a split second I actually think you're here. I hate to see you like this but my eyes can seem to go astray I need to see you lying there to force myself to accept it. I can't help but to think of all the times you made me laugh, the bond we created, and the opportunities I'll no longer have to make new memories. I beat myself up for moving away and not having the chance to create more memories and it makes it harder to accept that you're gone. You come to me in my dreams waking me out of my sleep and the whisper of your voice let's me know that even though you left this Earth you'll always be with me so as I lay eyes on you and walk away to say my last goodbye not knowing when I'll see you again I'll embrace all of our memories and continue to make you proud until we meet again. I love you forever and always!

Love,

Tee

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